I miss her so much. I wish I had a baby girl here who was bossing Fletcher around, but what I do have is an amazing legion of people who showered me with more love than I even thought possible. Aaron was out of town for work so I didn't get to see him at all, but he loved me from afar! He sent me a text message at 4 am (around the time I was born) and wished me a happy day. My baby sister showed up to take Fletcher for the day to play with him. (Side note: there is no way to my heart than to love on my son! It was such a gift for her to take him and love on him today!) And she showed up with Starbucks!! I got to walk into Fletcher's room and see that crazy, curly blonde bed headed boy grinning up at me! Whew, my cup already runneth over!
I got to work and my co workers had decorated my office. And by decorated, I mean that everywhere I looked was a party!! They had provided breakfast and the sweetest card! There were cupcakes and lunch and party all day long!
Around 2 I was
Tonight my sweet Mom and Dad and Sister took Fletch and I to dinner to celebrate. Not to mention that all day long my phone was going off with texts and alerts from sweet friends.
I don't say all of this to "brag" or to toot my own horn, I say it all to remind myself that in spite of all we have lost, we have gained so very much! I look around and see the amazing people God has strategically placed around me and the way they loved on my today in ways they will probably never understand. I know, without a doubt, that some of these people are only in my life as a result of losing Ella Grace. That God has made beautiful things from the dust of my heart. And I. Am. Blessed!
As I sit here, another year older, nowhere near what I thought my life would look like at 30, I am overcome with gratitude and love. I could fill a second cup with the overflow from my first!!
I miss you baby girl and I sure do wish we were having a 3rd birthday party this weekend. I am so thankful for you, sweet girl!! I am so thankful for the beautiful ways you have touched my life and have made our lives richer. Thank you for making me a Mommy and for giving me the opportunity to have Fletcher. Your little brother is such a good boy and reminds me of you daily! I love you sweet baby Girl and I still think of you every.single.day. My heart, which is still so broken and full of holes, is also so full!! Can't wait to see you sweet girl!
Forever your Mommy!