Today is Nothing. There are no stark reminders of our loss. It's Tuesday, nothing happened on a Tuesday. It's the 11th, nothing happened on the 11th. I know that sounds kind of crazy, but there aren't a lot of days that are nothing. Wednesdays are hard, because that was the day we went to a new "week" (we were xx weeks pregnant) and it was the day we found out we had lost Ella Grace. Thursdays are hard because I delivered her on a Thursday. Sundays are hard because we placed her in her spot and had her service on Sunday. Mondays are hard, well, because they are Mondays and I get used to having a 2 whole days with "A" and Bear. March is hard cause we lost Peanut in March and now Ella Grace. July is hard because my birthday is in July, Ella Grace's due date was in July, NuNu's due date was in July. October is hard because we conceived 2 babies in October. November-January are had because of the holidays.
See what I mean?! There are a lot of "hard" days, dates, months. But today, nothing!! Let's rejoice for nothing! Not that I am not thinking about our angel today, I am just choosing to think about how much I love her and how much better she made my life in 21 weeks and 1 day.
She did more in those weeks than most of us accomplish in a lifetime!
So, if you are having a hard day or if you are having a nothing day...REJOICE with me for my nothing day!
Also, I have been really lacking on my Listography, but I forgave myself for that shortcoming and just started again!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
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I hear ya..we have a ton of "dates" too.. glad you are finally seeing some light :) xo
Totally get this....Tuesdays remind me of the Tuesday we did the egg retrieval...Matthew's life started on a Tuesday!
And for Tuesdays, bittersweet as they are, I rejoice!!!! Rejoicing with you for a nothing day!
(Isn't it amazing how practically EVERY day holds some sort of meaning now?????)
xoxoxo
I am so sorry for your loss. I just stumbled on your blog. And I completely rejoice with you for your nothing day. XOXO
Yay for nothing days!!!!
Rejoicing with you in this very moment...and lifting you up in prayer on all those "days" that your heart hurts.
Much Love sweet Friend,
xoxo
Andrea
I'm CHOOSING to rejoice with you, Britt! What a great attitude.
I completely understand about the days and weeks marking something. Mondays are hard - both my first miscarriage and then my D&C with the second were on Mondays. The fourth of every month is hard - the day we learned our second baby had no heartbeat. Some days are hard simply (or not) because I have two babies who died. But I will CHOOSE to acknowledge and even celebrate today and other days! That's easier said than done, some days.... :)
"Nothing" days are wonderful! I am happy with you! :)
Happy Nothing Day!! Sending you love for your Wednesday.
Having a nothing day is fantastic!! I'm so glad it was a nothing day for you. I hope there are more of them to come.
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