In that place of feeling crappy. It seems like my sad mood from yesterday has just carried right over into today.
I got uber frustrated with "A" last night and went to bed feeling icky and mad then when I woke up this morning I just couldn't let it go. I guess just feel like it's easier to be mad at him that it is to be hurting as badly as I am. I know it's not fair to him and I hate it, but it's true. It's not a conscious decision I made, but I think in my self examination this morning it's the truth I came to.
I know I should call him and apologizing for making too big of a deal out of it, but I still have my feelings hurt and I am still upset. So, I guess I will continue to be stubborn for a little while longer. Reminds me of a country song that was something along the lines of not being ready to make nice yet!
I am going to lunch with some friends/coworker to "celebrate" Cinco De Mayo and hopfully when I get back from lunch I will be in a better frame of mind and will be able to write something better! Sorry you had to suffer through this!!!
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((hugs))..and completely normal.. often our significant others are the ones we take it out on the most..
No apologies needed. I find myself doing that on my blog too when I feel it's full of painful, sad or any other unhappy emotion. But it's just your truth right now and how you're feeling.
I find myself behaving the same way to my boyfriend. Logically I recognize what I'm doing but somehow I just can't shake the difficult feelings caused by my mother's passing that cause me to act that way.
And this may seem off or a but in bad taste but I somehow felt better after reading your post today to learn I'm not the only one who does this. I think you're right. It is easier to be upset than hurt. You've inspired me to work a bit harder at moving past those moments and get back on the same team.
I hope you feel better after some time spent with friends today!
Happy Cinco de Mayo hon. I totally understand how the crap from one day can easily spill into the next one. It's ok. This too shall pass. We must believe so anyway, right? I really hope you are having a fabulous time with your friends. As for hubby, he will be there when you are ready to make nice. Hugs!
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