What a day. When I was pregnant with Ella Grace I was excited to know at least 15 other women who were pregnant at the same time (yes, I did make a list of them!). At the time it was really exciting and I thought it would be so neat that most of us would be having summer babies (mostly all girls) around the same time. Now that Ella Grace is gone...it's not nearly as "fun." Two of those women gave birth to healthy baby girls today.
Please don't get me wrong!! I am beyond ecstatic for their families. And I know that the birth of these miracles have NOTHING to do with Ella Grace, but it is so hard to see these reminders of what we should be experiencing. We would have been 35 weeks pregnant today. We could have been expecting her at anytime!
I keep telling myself that she came in her own perfect time and that her quickly approaching due date is just another day. We met her exactly on the day that God ordained for us to see her face. I know this is truth, but my heart is still broken. God is working on that too. I know He has to break us before He can put us back together, but it isn't an easy process.
Thanks for "listening" and for understanding my pain. I hope your day was better than mine!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
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I'm sorry you had a bad day! ::BIG hugs::
Boy that must be really hard and it sounds completely appropriate to be struggling with others having their child right now. That birth is a blessing but I can't even imagine how hard that must be for you. I'm sorry Britt.
I can't imagine how difficult that must be for you. I think it's completely appropriate to be struggling. I will be praying you have peace during this time.
Praying that God eases your pain. He is the God of all comfort.
That has to be rough. One of my closest friends is approaching her due date (it's next week) and I know it's difficult enough dealing with that. But having to watch your friends give birth around this time must be heartbreaking. I'm thinking of you and sending you many hugs. <3
I know how hard it is--I have a cousin that had a baby girl the same day that my daughter was born and every time I see her I can't help but think--my daughter should be that age and we should be doing all those fun things.
Sending you warm thoughts, loss of a child is tremendously hard. There are no good words for it...
So sorry.
On a different note, I clicked on your twitter button to follow you and it said "no page existed" with your name. ?
Hope today is better!
Sending you a "pocket full of sunshine" sweet friend. This road is a challenging one that often leads to exhaustion, but one that we travel with tenacity....all while loving our angels.
As for watching those who were pregnant with you receive their babies, it hurts. It hurts me to think of 2 IRL friends who've had babies recently, as I was pregnant before both of them were and now they hold miracles and my arms are empty. But, I have FAITH in knowing that God has a plan for my defered dream...he needed to "hold" Christian (as I gave him our saviors name sake) in haven.
Take care of yourelf and know that I send you love.
xoxo
I am thinking about you and sending you hugs and love today.
I'm sure it's hard to see so many go on to have their happy endings and full arms. Not easy at all
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