Thursday, October 14, 2010

Miss her so bad

I am exhausted.  I have been on the road for work for the last 2 weeks and man, it is taking it's toll on me.  I haven't given into the grief and pain I have been feeling.  I haven't taken any time to nurture myself.  I haven't gotten to be loved on by my "A."

And now...

I am sitting in a strange hotel room, alone, bawling my eyes out.  I MISS HER!  And it's all just closing in at once.  It's been 7 months since we said goodbye and I didn't think it would still hurt this badly after this long.  (at least I had hoped it wouldn't still hurt this badly and it wouldn't still be so raw). 

There aren't even words...I just had to come here, to our blog, and try to feel a little closer to her. 

Forever Her Mommy,

8 rose petals:

lis said...

im sorry its so hard, my friend. just know that you have so many people who are figuratively holding your hand and you will get through this. promise.
xoxo
lis

Karin said...

Being alone just brings out those feelings even stronger. This grief and worry takes more energy than I know I realize. I hope you are able to get some good sleep and are going home soon.

DeniFay said...

Love you! Wish we were both home & I could give you a big hug!!! <3 Ella Grace <3

Melani said...

I'm sorry Britt! It's been 9 months exactly tomorrow since we said goodbye to our Evan, and all of a sudden I feel so depressed. I had been "fine" for so long, and all of a sudden...BAM! I guess it's a reminder that our babies are real even though we can't see them or hold them. Prayin you find some peace and comfort!!!

Jen said...

I am so sorry :( please try to make time for yourself soon, its insane how much grief can sneak up on you..((hugs))

Holly said...

I think there'll always be moments when it just really hurts. (((hugs)))

Marie W said...

Big {Hugs}

Lori said...

Oh friend...I'm so, so behind in all my blogs, but am trying to catch them here and there and just wanted to check in on you---sorry I missed when you posted this but want you to know I think of you lots and keep you in my prayers always!!!
xoxoxoxo

 
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